Tuesday, October 18, 2011

The Final Two Week Wait

Throughout it all – the TTC naturally, the IUI’s, the IVFs, the miscarriages, it seemed like our lives were split into little two week periods. Waiting for ovulation, waiting for AF, waiting for that elusive BFP, waiting for an ultrasound, waiting to miscarry, waiting, waiting, waiting. And after it all, I am finally in the last two week wait for my baby.

I went to the doc this morning, and he scheduled me for an induction on November 1 – two weeks from today. At that point I’ll be 38 weeks, 3 days, and he doesn’t want me to go any longer for fear of going into labor naturally without being able to control the timing of Lovenox. I also had my first ultrasound since 20 weeks, which was cool. Little Alex was head down, and it looks like she’ll be a little small. She is weighing 5 lbs, 13 oz, and is in the 28th percentile. But everything looked good, and I can’t wait to meet her!

I can’t believe I’m giving birth two weeks from today (assuming of course my body doesn’t decide to do something differently). Of course my mind goes to my To Do list, trying to figure out what needs to happen before she comes. But there really is very little. Sure I’d love to organize some more at home, but after working all day, I’m completely exhausted, and I don’t get anything done in the evenings. I’ll be working until next Friday (woohoo! So excited to take time off!) so I really will only have one day off of work prior to induction date. This weekend we have infant CPR and infant care classes, so that should be fun. At least it will be very relevant, and the hubs won’t complain about not needing to know the information! Other than that, there’s really very little to do. The bag is packed with the exception of last minute items like cell phone chargers, the room is done, or at least as much as we’re going to do, and everything is ready.

I have good news about the Lovenox & aspirin while breastfeeding thing. I talked with my OB about it, and he thinks I should just stop taking both drugs at birth. Yes, I have a clotting issue, but I’ve never actually had clots that have been diagnosed, only a gene mutation. So he tells his patients with this situation to just stop the drugs at birth, no weaning required, and he’s never seen an issue. So that makes the decision very easy!

It’s so strange to admit, but I’m having a little anxiety about being a mom. The time is finally almost here, and I hate to admit that I’m nervous about being able to handle it. I hear from others about how hard the first few weeks and months can be, and I’m getting nervous about it. I honestly think it will be fine, but I also wonder how naïve I am being – what if it’s not fine? I don’t spend much time with these thoughts, but sometimes at 3:00 in the morning when I can’t sleep the fear races through my mind…

I must get back to work as I have a huge list of things that I need to get done prior to leaving work. But as I complete these tasks, the words “Two more weeks, two more weeks!” keep going through my mind. Two more weeks – can you believe it???

28 comments:

  1. Two more weeks! My sister has her c-section planned on nov 1st as well! I will be thinking of you that day as well :o)

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  2. Wow!!! I am so excited for you!! : ) Can't wait to move you from "Preggers" to "Parents" in my google reader ; )

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  3. Oh my Alex, I can't believe you are so close. I am so excited for you, you are going to be a great mom!!

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  4. Wow, two weeks! Here it comes! Just sit back and relax, girl, as much as you can. Take good care. xoxo

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  5. My IVF buddy! Yeah to your last 2WW! Sounds like she's going to be petite, but at least she'll be smaller for the birthing canal! Ah!! I am super excited for you. You are going to be a wonderful mother to little Alex!

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  6. Glad you got an answer on the lovenox/aspirin issue. Soon you'll have a sweet baby girl and NO MORE NEEDLES! Woohoo!!

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  7. Ah yes, the final TWW =) That's great news about the drugs and breast feeding! Every new Mom worries about being a good one...and honestly I still worry and my LO is almost 17 months. Nothing can prepare you for those first few weeks/months. The exhaustion is unreal but so is the happiness. Just promise yourself that if it gets to be too much you'll ask for help. Us IF'ers tend to have problems in that area because we worked so hard to get here and feel like we should just handle it all. But I promise your family and friends will love to watch your baby for a little while so you can take a shower or grab a nap. My biggest piece of advice is just to enjoy the ride. It's fantastic =)

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  8. 2 weeks!!!! This is the best 2 weeks ever though is it not?

    And you will be an excellent mother. You will amaze yourself with your ability to do 5 tasks with only your two available hands. you will be in shock at your spidey sense when you wake up at the tiniest cry or shift in movement of your baby girl. But most of all you will be comforted when you realize that she LOVES you like her life depends on it! Whether you have managed to take a shower or brush your teeth that day or not, she will still think you are the cat's meow. And as you find yourself feeding her while on the toilet..lol..it will dawn on you...that there's no road map for parenting but the one you've got going is pretty awesome!

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  9. The final 2 week wait how exciting!!! It is hard but you will be a great mom and get through it!!! And I agree with the comment about it is overwhelming you will need to ask for help, it doesn't mean you don't love your baby it will make you a better mom in to get a break every once in awhile.

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  10. Here's wishing you a restful, peaceful final 2WW! And those worries about mamahood and the intensity of those first few weeks? Normal. Will you survive and thrive in your new mamahood? Absolutely. It's going to blow your mind in the best of ways. ;)

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  11. Yay for your final 2ww!! Soon you'll be living your life in 2 hour chunks from feeding to feeding :-) Glad to have you on the mamahood side (soon!)

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  12. May your final 2ww be the best you've had and ENJOY being a new mom! All of it, the good, the bad and the ugly :)

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  13. Wow Alex! I can't believe you are almost there! I feel privileged to have followed you on your journey to becoming a parent and wish you and baby Alex the very best.

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  14. No I can't believe it's only two weeks left! How wonderful that the drugs and breastfeeding got cleared for you. You will do great, that I'm sure of. Will think about you that day.

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  15. Yeah! Two more weeks. That is great!

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  16. Two more weeks - it will go by so fast and then all your days will run together! You will be a fantastic mom!

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  17. 2 more weeks!! so excited for you!

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  18. EEK! I hope this 2WW is a short one!!! How exciting!!

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  19. 2 weeks!!! They go more slowly than any of those other 2ww's, I swear. My last days of pregnancy seemed to last eons. And everything since has passed in the blink of an eye.

    New-motherhood is intense and wonderful. You'll be really tired, but that's about the worst of it. And then those first weeks are over before you know it, and you're an old pro who's *USED TO* the fatigue :)

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  20. You are so close! Motherhood is hard but I'm sure you will do great ;) Congrats!

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  21. So exciting, Alex! Everyone wonders if they'll be a good mother but looking from the outside I don't doubt that you'll be wonderful with little Alex!

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  22. Wow, I cannot believe how time flies. I think it's completely normal to have anxieties about finally becoming a parent-I'm certain you'll be great!!!

    All my best to you Alex. I'm so happy for you!

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  23. Only two more weeks!! Thinking of you and sending tons of good vibes!! Fran

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  24. Oh wow - two weeks! You're amazing for working right up to the end too. Hoping it all goes smoothly and looking forward to seeing cute baby pictures soon!

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  25. AHHHH I'm so stinkin excited for you!!!!

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  26. what a relief!! I am glad there is a solution regarding breastfeeding. I can not wait for you to tell us the story of the Birth of little Alex. Our Alex's...what we do for them!:) Have you noticed you hear the name Alex more. I do. It is actually a very popular name!! I am so excited for you! I too get worrried. There are all these expert books about how to get your baby to sleep and and attachment therapy,...and well..it is overwhelming. But..We will be just fine.

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  27. I'm so happy that you are so near the end of this pregnancy, and that you will be holding your little Alex in your arms very soon!

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  28. I sure can't believe it but so excited for you!

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