Do you remember the feelings of falling in love? Feeling like you can’t get enough of the other person. Lying in bed, staring into the other person’s eyes, feeling like the whole world doesn’t matter, nothing matters but the two of you. Wanting to touch the other person, kiss as much as possible. You just can’t get enough of them, just want to lie there forever, talking and holding the other person.
This is how I feel with my little Alex. Most days after I pick her up from daycare, we go home, and for about thirty minutes we hang out on my bed. We play with toys, and I read books to her. I hope we can continue to do this even as she gets older. I hope one day she’ll tell me about her day, and we can reconnect at the end of the day, by taking a few moments of time together. Last night we were lying down facing each other on our sides, and I had my hands on her side or her legs, and she kept putting her little hands on my face. We stared into each other’s eyes, holding hands or stroking each other’s faces, for a long time. I kept kissing her cute little cheeks, and she’s learning to kiss me back – wide mouth, drooling, and adorable. (Hubs has commented, “Are you making out with her again?”) And it occurred to me that I haven't felt this way in a long time – not since falling in love. But I guess that’s what we’re doing. We’re falling in love with each other.
Over time, relationships get more comfortable, the feeling of butterflies and romance start to fade. Sure, I still love my husband, but the days of wanting to stare endlessly into his eyes are sadly long gone. Our days are filled with chores, and what did you do todays, and what do you want for dinners. We don’t take much time to simply express how much we love each other while staring into each other’s eyes. Maybe we should… But with Alex, it feels so simple. Everything she does is perfect. I can’t spend enough time with her – she never annoys me. And I know she’s in love with me too. When I walk into daycare, she’s usually sitting on the floor, playing with her toys. She will look up, get a huge grin on her face, and start flapping her little arms like a bird. So excited, so happy to see me! I know these days are numbered, that one day she’ll be annoyed by my words. And that I may get tired of hearing her whiny voice. But right now, these days are wonderful. No disappointment, no annoyance. Just pure and perfect love.