Friday, April 15, 2011

It Took One Comment

Yesterday morning as we were getting ready for work, the hubs looked over at me and said, “You don’t seem as sick as you have been lately.” And he’s right. Suddenly, yesterday I started feeling so much better! Very little nausea, not as tired, the brain was clicking a little better, and I was in a better mood. I thought for a second, and I said, ”Well, it’s one of a few things. I stopped the estrogen pills and patches on Tuesday per the doc’s instructions. And I decreased the progesterone to every other day. And sometimes nausea subsides after awhile. Or it’s because the baby is dead.” He shushed me, and we went on with our days. But I keep thinking about it…

Last night when the hubs came home from work, he checked the mail and I already had picked it up. Then he came inside to see his wife cooking dinner – with real ingredients like raw chicken, onions and everything. Usually he comes home to napping wife, and I haven’t picked up the mail in a long while. And the only times I’ve “made dinner” in the last month or so, I’ve made grilled cheese or soup or PB&J sandwiches or something. He was very surprised, and quickly asked when my next doctor’s visit was – it’s on Tuesday.

I keep telling myself everything is ok – the ultrasound on Tuesday was perfect – measured perfectly, baby waved at us, everything looked well. I’m sure it’s just the change in meds or something that is causing me to feel better, but there’s a part of me that wonders. It’s so nice to feel good, but I’m so afraid of what it could mean…

42 comments:

  1. It's at times like these where I HATE that we've experienced loss. It's so not fair. There's no reason to think everything is not continuing to go well however. (Though I am glad you have an appt. soon to soothe your mind.) I bet the meds changing plays a role.

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  2. My RE said that getting off the meds was supposed to help me feel better. So that could be a totally happy reason to be feeling better! I'm glad though that you have that reassuring appt early next week. It is just nice not to be doubting all the time. Enjoy feeling good!

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  3. Alex, I'm sure it is because you have lessened your mess AND you are farther along. But I know that I too would be very worried. I wish I could take you loss away and tell you NOT to worry but I know it's futile. You and the little person in there are going to be ok!!
    ((hugs))

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  4. I am sure you are fine. I stopped having symptoms around 10-11 weeks when I got off progesterone. I am praying everything is ok.

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  5. I am very sure you're doing fine and so is the baby!!! Yippee for cooking dinner!

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  6. That is so tough. I hope it really is just going off the meds. Hang in there until Tuesday! (((Hugs)))

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  7. my nausea went away one day magically at around 10 weeks and i freaked, thinking it meant something bad. umm, not the case at all. i know it's hard NOT to analyze, but at the same time, can't compare your nausea to anyone else's. no worries. just consider yourself lucky that the nausea is better :o)

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  8. It's def. because of weaning off the meds. I felt the same way, some days I felt bad and some good and on the good days I worried and worried.
    Even without the extra meds, I've noticed the symptoms come and go and are some days stronger than others.
    *hugs* everything will be good.

    ps. i haven't cooked a meal since my transfer :) which is pure lazy, not pregnancy

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  9. Awww Alex. I hate that you have to feel so alarmed. Most people don't know what to expect or pay attention to and just roll through pregnancy totaly oblivious. But i can't even justify saying "relax" when i know you are reacting to your own past experiences. But i know your next doctors visit will just be one more reassurance and help you get one step closer to really settling in and enjoying your pregnancy.

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  10. *hug* Sounds completely normal and good to me but I'll be sending positive, healthy-baby thoughts your way.

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  11. It's awful to have to worry because you're feeling better! I know the meds add to the yucky feelings, and also I've heard that for some women, morning sickness subsides around 9 weeks--I wish! So i bet it is a combinationof those factors that have you feeling better. But, I understand the fear. Any way you can see your fox sooner?

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  12. Sounds totally like the meds. Sending many ((hugs)).

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  13. I had one of those days a few times during the first trimester. Ha! Don't get too attached to that lovely feeling. I usually found my head back in the toilet before I knew it! Darn morning sickness.

    Glad to hear you got a bit of relief.

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  14. Returning to my theme that infertility is evil: because to the infertile girl, good news IS bad news. And tragically, she has a reason. But I am praying that there is NOT a reason this time and the good news is just really good news.

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  15. Sometimes, it just goes away and you can live some normalacy for a while!

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  16. I have a feeling it has something to do with the meds. I'm sure everything is just fine. And how awesome if you are over feeling crummy already!

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  17. Alex, hang in there. I'm so sorry. RPL sucks. I'm sure it's just the meds. Happy you have another u/s soon.

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  18. Ach. I do this, as well. The least comment, the minutest observation. I can now say this with absolute certainty: that icky feeling waxes and wanes. I went through about four weeks where it would be terrible for a couple of days, then suddenly better. Instead of enjoy the better days, I spent them afraid that it was over. I think there's no way NOT to worry. But my guess is that the sickies will be back tomorrow or the next day.

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  19. It's definitely the change in meds! Keep your head up, talk to and love on your very healthy baby hanging in your womb!!

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  20. Don't worry lady, I had days like that too where I felt normal-ish. I bet its the drugs too, those things are unforgiving and YEAH for the last post!

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  21. I hope it is just coming off the meds! Try and enjoy what you can of the good days. I read somewhere where one woman mentioned enjoying what you can rather than focusing on the fear and worry, as the outcome is already determined and you are doing the best that you can.

    I'm thinking about you and your little one and can't wait to hear the good news from this next u/s!

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  22. I can tell you that when I stopped progesterone recently, it's like my world changed...I felt so much better and was terrified. Thinking of you and hoping for a wonderful appointment on Tuesday.

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  23. Don't read into it, appreciate that you are feeling better and eating better for you and baby!!!

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  24. Please don't worry yet, your appt is so close & I bet you feel worse again tomorrow! I know this feeling all too well but am crossing fingers all is ok. Love xxoo

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  25. With my daughter, I was sick as a dog one day and the next day I felt 75% better and then one more day I felt totally fine, with never again seen sickness. With this baby, it was a more gradual road to feeling better, like 2 weeks. I bet you are ok, good luck. Call your doc if it really gets to you.

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  26. *hugs* It must be scary to feel good, which is odd but understandable! Hang in there hun!!

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  27. I'm going with the change in meds. Your u/s was great and I'm hopeful that everything us as it should be. I know it's hard to keep the negative feelings at bay but try to have faith that everything us fine. Thinking if you.

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  28. I hope it's the change in meds and nearing the end of the first trimester. But I understand freaking out, I really really do.

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  29. Stopping the meds definitely has an effect. And your hormones have stabilised by now, so feeling better and with energy is not unexpected! I know the next appointment cannot come soon enough but I have no doubt everything, this time, is ok. Love, Fran

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  30. I'm sure it's from the meds. I know it is so difficult not to worry. I'm sending positive thoughts your way.

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  31. I felt SOOOO much better at 13 weeks. Like night and day better. It's totally normal. For some it happens at 16 weeks and for others it happens at 8 weeks. Sending calming vibes your way.

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  32. I sure can relate to this! How sad that feeling good can send us into a frenzy of worry. But it probably is just your body adjusting to being on fewer drugs and baby is just fine! Hope baby will wave to you again on Tuesday to reassure you.

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  33. I hope it all is good! and then you can enjoy this freedom of feeling so tired and sick! :)

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  34. I know you scared and the wonder is still there, sending prayers to you. Everything will be ok!

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  35. Evil infertility and loss monsters.

    I think those feelings/worries are normal considering what you've been through. I can't wait for your next appointment so you can be reassured. <3

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  36. I agree with your other noters. Decreasing the meds and probably getting closer to the second trimester is what is making you feel better. Try not to worry about something being wrong. I know easier said than done. It get's much easier once you can feel them moving around so you know they are ok.

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  37. I'm glad you are feeling better. Enjoy it! I remember always thinking that something would happen if I let my guard down and enjoyed all the happy moments.

    All is well. Enjoy. :)

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  38. Best of luck on tomorrows appointment, it's really great they check on you once a week now.

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  39. I hate that you feel this way! I am sure everything is fine! Take it one day at a time!

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  40. Conceptionally ChallengedApril 18, 2011 at 10:17 AM

    I hope you get reassuring news soon, Alex.
    Thinking of you.

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  41. one day, my symptoms just stopped, too. I was shocked... they ended up returning, although much milder, in about two weeks. everything is fine, the baby is fine. it kinda shook me, but taught me that pregnancy is weird!

    I'm sure everything is fine... keep positive and your appt will be here soon!

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  42. Don't read into the disappearing symptoms, hun. they come and go, and sometimes disappear altogether. baby is fine, sweetie! I know it's hard hang in there. xo

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