Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Home Again


After a day and a half in the hospital, multiple monitoring of the babies, a 24-hour urine test, multiple blood tests, I have been sent home with the same diagnosis I walked in there with: pregnancy induced hypertension.  Yes, it keeps getting higher, but they can’t find any evidence of pre-eclampsia in my body.  So very good news!  I have been cleared to go home and wait a little longer.  I have a renewed commitment to bed rest.  I have to admit, I’ve been doing too much cleaning and stuff at home.  But I really need to focus on laying down as much as possible, and just being okay with living in a shithole of a place.  It’s really not dirty exactly – every two weeks, I have a housekeeper that comes and cleans.  And it appears the dishes get washed occasionally.  But there is stuff everywhere!  We still haven’t unpacked completely, and my husband decided to get some boxes unpacked this weekend.  But his idea of unpacking is take stuff out of the boxes and spread them all over the house.  There are pictures propped up in rooms all over, but not actually on the walls.  There’s a huge pile of stuff at the top of the stairs to the basement – things that need to go downstairs – but haven’t actually made it down there.  And every counter in the kitchen is covered with stuff.  Because he also did the great thing of going to the grocery store, but he didn’t actually put away the non-refrigerated stuff!  Why oh why? 

I’m trying to chill out and just accept things for awhile, but it truly drives me nuts.  I know that if I just get up and take care of it, it would only take 1-2 hours to do it, but I also know that it would start a chain reaction in my body – contractions, higher blood pressure, and maybe another round of hospital checks.  So I lie down, and try to ignore it when I make my slow little trips to the kitchen to get food.  At least there is food in the house – right?  He provided that, so I need to just be okay with it. 

I go back to the doc on Friday for another growth scan.  It will have been 3 weeks since the last scan, and I think I’m most worried about that.  All this distraction about my high blood pressure and possible pre-eclampsia seems to have taken the focus away from the true worries – my little guys growing.  Last time one of them was down to 10.8%, and that was down from 48% only six weeks prior.  We have been on a bad trajectory for both of them, so I would not be surprised if it’s even worse.  From what I’ve read, high blood pressure doesn’t help with growth either.  I have been pounding the protein shakes, and trying to eat  as much as possible.  The weight for me has definitely gone up – I’m definitely following if not exceeding the weight guidelines for twin pregnancies.  But I’m afraid it’s not translating to appropriate weight gain for the boys.  I don’t know what else to do – I guess just lie here as long as possible. 

I’ll be 34 weeks on Saturday, which my doctor is very happy about.  She says that 34 weeks makes a big difference for the babies, especially regarding NICU time and care that is required after birth.  I’ve taken the steroid shots, and she moved me from Lovenox to Heparin, to be ready for a quick delivery if necessary.  I guess all we do now is wait.  I don’t think she’ll let me go past 37 weeks, so 3 weeks max after Saturday.  I’m hoping that we schedule a 37 week c-section date on Friday, just so we have something to focus on.  The nursery isn’t ready, and I don’t have a hospital bag packed.  I just can’t get too excited about all that stuff.  All I want is to stay pregnant for a few more weeks to give these boys the best fighting chance possible.  The rest will all fall into place.

17 comments:

  1. Absolutely. You are doing what is in everyone's best interest for the long run. I will be thinking of you on Friday adn hoping those protein shakes went straight to the boys!!!!!!

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  2. Fingers crossed.... many prayers for 3 more weeks!!

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  3. Yep, you just have to let the rest of it go. It's hard, but it's for the best. You are so close to 37 weeks! Fingers crossed for a good scan Friday.

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  4. (((hugs))) I'm glad you're home. The next few weeks will be stressful, but soon your little bundles of joy will be here! 36 weeks is full term for twins, right? You're SO CLOSE!

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  5. Do let us know how it goes on Friday-- I'm rooting hard that the protein shakes are doing their job. And LIE DOWN, lady!!!! Did you say you could get your MIL to come and help out? That would be super. I hate to think of you lying there and stressing about the mess.

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  6. YAY! So glad you're back home.

    Maybe you can make a SHORT list (5 things max) of stuff you'd appreciate your husband taking care of daily to help you feel like you can truly be on bedrest. Things like "empty dishwasher, put away groceries, laundry in the basket, etc." I know for my hubby, he gets overwhelmed if I give him too much, but those basic things really help my mood too if they're done!

    I hope these babies stay cooking for a few more weeks for you!!

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    1. Also, where are you living again? Wondering how far you are from me.

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  7. You're doing such a great job of taking care of those babies. Just remember you're doing all you can and you're right, the rest will fall into place!

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  8. So glad you are home! Been thinking about you a lot. I know the house/mess thing is driving you nuts, it would me too, but try and just shut it out of your mind and focus on keeping you and those boys healthy. Will be anxiously awaiting your next update- take care of yourself!

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  9. Take care of yourself, don't worry about the mess!!

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  10. so so glad you are home! I hope you get good news on Friday and both babies look good. 34 weeks is AWESOME!

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  11. I'm glad you're home and yay for no pre-E! Ugh, I know what you mean about getting things done around the house. It drives me crazy, and husbands are no help unfortunately! lol. I am praying for great news at the growth scan!! Hugs!

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  12. I'm so glad you are doing better. I know it's hard, but just let everything else go. It's okay if things aren't tidy. What's important is you get rest so those babies can keep growing! Good luck with the appt. Sounds like you are in good hands with your dr's and a great hospital. I can't believe it's almost time for the boys to come. Seems like it was yesterday that you announced the pregnancy! Rest up my friend. :)

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  13. 34 weeks is great! Hooray!

    Keep taking it easy - and listen to Josey's advice!

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  14. Well, at least he put the stuff that needs it into the fridge, so that's a start. My husband just drops everything when we come back from shopping... that would be a steep learning curve for him.
    Glad you're back home, and 34 weeks sounds very good! Hang in there, Alex. I hope tomorrow brings good news.

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  15. Delighted you are home! one day at the time sweetie, you are nearly there! Love, Fran

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  16. Hi babe - I'm sending all my best vibes that those babies stay inside for a bit longer! Soo relieved for you that your au pair is here and making everything easier. Hope you can get lots of rest and sending hugs :o)

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