IUI’s – done

Both IUI’s are done – now we wait. Beta scheduled for 10/19. It all went really well. This weekend was interesting. On Friday night, I was an anxious mess. I think I got all psyched up to do the IUI’s this weekend, and when my schedule changed, I got so anxious and nervous. I don’t know why I do this to myself. I felt so out of control, I even started having mini panic attacks, where I couldn’t breathe, my heart started racing, everything.

Saturday was better – the hubs left on his trip, and I went and got my hair cut and colored (last time for a long time, right?). And I just focused on being nice to myself. Sunday I wanted to feel like I was productive, or something, so I made a huge list of things that I’ve been meaning to do around the house, and I did them ALL! So proud of myself. To reward myself, I went and got a mani/pedi, and then ordered sushi take-out that night. I love sushi, and I wanted it one last time – heavenly. The other thing I did was I finally ordered Circle+Bloom. I’ve been thinking about it for awhile, but it seemed so expensive. Finally I rationalized that I’m paying thousands of dollars for this to work. I’m a nervous and anxious wreck – I have got to do something to relax myself. I wish I would have purchased this earlier. I love it! Sunday night I listened to the trigger session, and yesterday and today I listed to the insemination session. Then tomorrow I’ll start the various 2ww sessions – I think it will help tremendously! I find myself in a much better place than I ever have been before – just by listening to it.

The IUI’s went fine – I had the hot young doctor do it yesterday (love him!) and the nice nurse today. I should tell you about the hot doc. He’s not my regular doc – I have the old head guy do all my consultations and planning of my cycles. But the hot doc has been there for some very important times in my life. I first met him the day when they told me I had an ectopic pregnancy. He sat there, handing me tissues, and telling me all about what to expect. Then he did one of my IUI’s during Round 2. And he has the most amazing bedside manner. He says, “ok, now I’m going to touch your thigh,” and he does. And then he runs his hand up my inner thigh… Yes, it’s just to insert the speculum, but at that moment, I’ll take any nice thing! After Round 2 of the IUI’s, he was there for the 30 minute ultrasound when they were looking for another ectopic – they thought for a little while that I had an ectopic pregnancy at the same time as my regular pregnancy. And then he was there for the No Heartbeat ultrasound. And he was great. He did a very good job at explaining my options. Yesterday was the first time I had seen him since. He was nice, just saying, “It’s great to see you again.” Oh the memories…

I’m feeling ok, very positive. My ovaries are hurting like hell. I have to applaud you IVF ladies. I can’t even imagine. I know that my ovaries are swollen, but your ovaries are even more swollen with your many follicles! I have to hand it to you ladies – seriously! I plan to take it easy the next few days, and then I’m off to Maryland on Friday for a wedding. Hopefully this 2ww will go fast – and then we’ll move on to the next step… Ugh.