Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Graduated!

First, thanks to everyone for your reassuring comments. I hate that infertility and loss does this – we have a couple good days in our pregnancy, and we automatically assume that there is something wrong with our babies. Because sometimes that’s what it means – sometimes the absence of symptoms means the baby is now dead. But most of the time it means that you’re lucky, and hopefully the symptoms are getting better. I hate that those of us that have experienced infertility or loss, or both, automatically assume it’s bad. But you all sent me very encouraging comments, and gave me reassurances, enough to get through the few less-symptom days. And then, this weekend, all the symptoms came back, with full force! Good times!

I went to my RE office today, for my final appointment. They told me to stop taking the progesterone shots, and I’m not on any restrictions anymore – no restrictions on exercise, sex, anything! I don’t have the hematoma anymore – it’s completely gone. And everything looks great. The little guy was hitting and kicking all around – so feisty! He even reached up to his head – the nurse said he was scratching his head a little – so very cute. He’s measuring at 10 weeks 4 days, even though I’m at 10 weeks 2 days today. And a heartbeat of 156.

It was a little sad leaving that office. I have gone there so many times over the last 18 months. I was glad to have the nurse that I have seen the most doing my last ultrasound. I thanked her for all her help, and she said that she gave me kudos for all the research and self-advocacy I’ve done to have this baby. Love her! It was so weird walking out of there. I won’t be back until I start trying for baby #2. We haven’t decided when that will be, but I love knowing that they’re taking care of seven frozen embryos for us.

So I now must accept that I’m no longer a fertility patient – now I will go forward with my pregnancy as a normal (yet scared) pregnant woman. Luckily I have my next ultrasound scheduled for April 29 (next week!), which will be the NT scan. But after that, it will be every four weeks that I have to go without confirmation from a doctor that everything is ok. And I think that after we get the results from the NT scan, I’ll officially come out at work. Although I think most people suspect – there’s been some weird vibes lately. Oh who cares, let them all gossip! For now, I’m celebrating that everything is ok – at 10+ weeks, my baby is alive and well. Maybe I will get to have this baby after all…

43 comments:

  1. yaay, great news!! it was bittersweet graduating from the RE's office. i was like "why can't you deliver my baby too??!" to my doc. sadly, they can't :o( glad that the next appt is only a week away. you'll breathe a huge sigh of relief once that one is over :o) xoxo.

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  2. Such awesome news! It will be weird being a 'normal' pregnant lady but I'm hoping that you will let yourself enjoy this time. So happy for you!

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  3. I miss my RE but it's kind of a nice feeling to be normal! Congrats!!!

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  4. HUGE SMILE over here! 10+ weeks and he/she is measuring ahead! No more hematoma! Graduation! Yippee!

    I bet you'll miss your RE. I miss my OB...

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  5. Yay for graduating!! I'm so glad the absence of symptoms meant nothing!

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  6. Everything sounds like it is going great for you! I can imagine how odd it must feel to no longer be going there for a while.

    This little guys seems to be a keeper. Measuring ahead, great heartbeats... I can't wait for your NT results!

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  7. Nice Alex! Happy to hear that everything is normal :)

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  8. Delighted for you, Alex. Congratulations!!!

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  9. Fantastic Alex!!!!!!! I am so happy for you. Enjoy every moment. don't let fear rob you of one single second of this incredible journey that you are on.

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  10. yes you will have this baby Alex!!! I hope you are able to celebrate this moment. I am sure it feels a little bit like graduating college. You worked so hard, and now what? You will adapt though..I am sure. I am so excited for you. Are you going to create a new blog page or keep this one? I have seen so many IF women change to another blog.

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  11. Woohoo!! Such great news, Alex!! I'm so happy for you! I hope the next several months are nothing but smooth sailing :)

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  12. Congrats Alex!!! I am so glad that everything is fine and you are a normal pregnant person!!! I am so happy for you!

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  13. YAY for graduation!! That is so exciting and you got to see the baby again, that must have been soooooo reassuring, YAY. I hope the time passes quickly until your next ultrasound!

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  14. I am so glad that your baby is doing well and you get to graduate to the OB!!! Congratulations!!! I am so, so, so happy for you!!!!

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  15. Yay for graduation!!! I'm so glad all is going well! :)

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  16. Your post brought tears to my eyes. I am so happy for you, my IVF buddy. Cheers to your graduation, and cheers to 10 weeks!

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  17. Wow, so amazing!!!! Can't wait to hear how the NT scan goes!!!!

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  18. Soooo happy you have finally made it to this point. Sucks that everything has too be so scary but I promise things will start to feel a lot easier after the next few weeks. Once I could feel the little one things changed completely, it really REALLY felt real! Yup, we may just have these babies after all :) Cant wait till we can see the pics of your scan!

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  19. Yeah!! I knew everything would be fine but am overjoyed to read this :) What a lovely ultrasound, and yay for the NT scan soon. I really liked mine. Take care Alex :) xo

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  20. Yay for graduating! I'm so proud of you and your little guy! ;)

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  21. Awesome for graduation day! Very cool!

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  22. I'm so excited for you! This is great news!

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  23. Congratulations Alex! So happy for you.

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  24. Oh Alex, how exciting to be moving on to being a 'normal' pregnancy patient! I can only imagine it would be terrifying but hopefully somewhat a relief. I'm thrilled beyond words that you've got a clean bill of health and I look forward to seeing lots of posts about a very boring, normal pregnancy for you. *hugs*

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  25. Fantastic!! So happy all is well, and I found it almost impossible to get through the 4 weeks with no reassurance. Specially at the beginning when you have no movements. So I bought the doppler thing for the heartbeat. Cheering you on, Fran

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  26. Yay Alex. :D I'm thrilled for you. Your strength and courage through all this has been truly inspirational. :D I can't wait to join the pregnancy wagon.

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  27. Great news!! Happy graduation! Its a great milestone to be done with the progesterone.

    Thank you for your sweet comment on my blog. We are like IVF/FET twins!!

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  28. Whooo hoo! Graduation celebration time! I'm so happy for you!

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  29. Congrats, mama! Even if you have to wait a while between ultrasounds, you will get to hear the heartbeat at every appointment.

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  30. Such a huge milestone - congrats! I hope your new clinic treats you well.

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  31. Congrats on graduating! I was sad to leave my clinic just b/c they took such good care of us. At the OB's office, I'm "just another patient." Hope the rest of your journey at the OB is a positive one.

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  32. Woohoo for graduating to the OB!! I am thrilled to hear that the hematoma is gone, too ... that has to be such a huge relief. *big hugs*

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  33. congrats on graduating!! 10 weeks is huge and everything looks great Alex! I am so thrilled for you!

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  34. Congrats, Alex. This must be the best graduation ever.

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  35. Excellent news, Alex:) It's the best type of graduation ever.

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  36. Oh man oh man, I'm on the edge of my seat.... YEAH!!!!!!! and I knew it so YEAH!!!! and more YEAH!!!! cause you deserve it!

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  37. PS-I left you an award over on my blog. I wanted to send you a shout out because your story is truly inspiring to those of us still TTC.

    Happy Easter!

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  38. Congrats on graduating! I could not believe it when I graduated. I was nervous about not going there, about not having progesterone support anymore, and for having to wait a month between visits with my ob, but all turned out well just like it will with you. Congrats!

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  39. Hey hun..I just gave you an award! Check out my blog :)

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  40. I just gave you an award. I really appreciate how you have been supportive this whole time through my cycle!
    hugs!!
    I hope everything is going well with your pregnancy.:)

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