Wednesday, April 13, 2011

There’s a Person in There!

I had another ultrasound visit with the RE yesterday, and the hubs was finally able to go with me. At 9 weeks, 2 days, we got to see the baby, and it’s starting to look like an actual human! It’s so hard to tell up until this point what is what, but when he pointed out the head, and the arms, and the legs, it was so easy to see my little baby. The baby was waving at us a little, and it just about broke my heart. Aside from the sickness, I can’t physically tell that there’s something inside of me growing, but there is – an honest to goodness, live baby! Amazing.

The doc told me that I’m supposed to start decreasing my meds. Completely cut out the estrogen pills and patches, and do the progesterone in oil shots every other day instead of every day. This will go for a week, and then no more progesterone. This scares me a bit, as it seems like most people go off of meds at around 10 weeks, but I’m going to trust the doc. He says my placenta should be able to take over now, so that’s what it is – I have to accept this.

I’m hoping that these kind of visits will help me get more positive. I really need to work on my attitude over the next few weeks. I can’t feel this petrified when I finally come out to everyone at work. Because it will come across as grumpy or negative or something, and that’s not really appropriate at work. So I need to figure out some ways to be more positive. I shopped online for some maternity clothes today, got about five things in my cart, looked at them, and then quickly logged off so I wouldn’t buy anything – don’t want to jinx anything! Then later I shopped for baby stuff – oh no, that’s not going to happen any time soon. The hubs sent me a picture of a beautiful rocking chair. I said it was nice, but we shouldn’t buy it soon. I know he’s finally getting excited, I think the ultrasound helped, and I wish I could too. I think I need to keep thinking about it, and try to get myself more used to the idea, and maybe it will be better. But it’s hard, it’s very hard!!!

The hubs looked online and informed me the Chinese gender predictor thing said we’re having a boy. But he dreamed we are having a girl. So now he’s convinced it’s a girl… OK, even I have to admit – he’s pretty cute like this.

38 comments:

  1. about the chinese gender chart. it's only accurate if you use your chinese bday, not your american one. so, *most ppl* are a year older on that chart than you think. so, with that said, go check the chart again. when is ur bday? if it's around when chinese new year starts every year, it's tricky. if it's not near jan/feb, then just add a year to your age (if ur bday hasn't come up yet). otw, just tell me ur bday and i'll look it up for ya :o) *phew*.

    yaay for reassuring u/s's and esp awesome that baby is starting to look human vs like a teddy bear (altho the latter *was* very cute)! xoxo.

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  2. Oh so great, Alex! It really sounds like things are going well! I love those early U/S!

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  3. That's great! I have 5 days left and I am still scared. It kinf of never ends. I hope you can over come the fear. I know people think I am not excited, but that is not the case. I just want to see her!

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  4. I'm thinking girl, too! :) Are you going to find out? I am sooo excited! I thought the 9 week u/s was the BEST. So.Freaking.Cute. Of course, I was worried up until the very end, and actually I still am! It takes FOREVER to get to the point where your baby can't just randomly drop dead! And that IS just so scary. But the worry does get less and less. I'm so so happy for you and your husband!

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  5. My RE has me scheduled to be off most of my meds around 10 weeks, except for the Heparin.

    I can identify with you about how it's kind of hard to believe something is growing inside you without seeing or feeling proof. But we just have to believe it, right?!

    Hang in there.

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  6. Yay for the person!!! :). And, yay for your adorable hubby.

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  7. This is wonderful, wonderful news!

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  8. It is so sweet that your hubby is getting excited. I know you will too in due time. It's hard to adjust after having to endure heartache first. But this is it girl! You got your baby!!

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  9. I say buy it....the clothes the baby stuff and definitely the rocker! You can rock in your clothes holding your belly and baby clothes and then you HAVE To get SOOOO excited :)

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  10. Hooray Alex! I am glad there is a little growing person in there! Thrilling :)

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  11. :) so beyond excited.
    P.S. thank you so very much for all of your support over the past few weeks.

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  12. So happy all is well! And how cute now your are at the phase of not wanting to stop the meds (I was the same!) but it will be fine, your baby is strong now and your body is in full pregnancy mode! Love, Fran

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  13. How wonderful to see bubs! I am sorry you are feeling so anxious but you are not alone! Xo

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  14. Oh that is so wonderful!! You give me so much hope, and I'm so happy for you! I hope the anxiety lessens, but it's understandable. Hugs!

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  15. Sweet hubby =) Wonderful that you got to see the little one together.

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  16. A real little person! That's awesome, Alex. And hey, those maternity and baby places save your online shopping cart for a while, right? Take your time and maybe for now, work on really being with the amazingness of this situation. Sending hugs.

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  17. Yay! So excited for you! But I totally understand that it's just frustrating not to physically be able to feel anything is there. At 16weeks, I still have a hard time believing our baby girl is in there. And with the belly kind of coming and going (admittedly, depending on what I'm wearing and how bloated I feel that day), it's still hard. But just hang on to the sight of that waving baby on the ultrasound! I have lots of good vibes about this one!!!

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  18. Yay for you, hubby, and baby! :)

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  19. Aw, hubs is so cute! I love his excitement! And congrats on a great ultrasound... little baby waves, so precious. xoxo.

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  20. You got to see your baby wave at you!!? :)

    I totally understand why you are trying to keep your happiness in check...fear will do that to you. But i hope the fear eases up so you can enjoy what you have been given. Every tiny moment of it. And your husband is over the moon! Adorable!!

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  21. Awesome, awesome!! So happy to hear of another great appointment and that you and hubs are starting to get really excited. It's so hard to let go of the fear, I think i finally bought a few things around 17 weeks? And that was just bedding. the crib and rocking chair was around 23 weeks or so. You'll get there, give yourself time!

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  22. Yay for the ultrasound!!!
    Because of my hematoma I was so freaked out, but I think the m/c rates are less than 3% after 10 weeks and an ultrasound with the heartbeat confirmed.
    Hope that helps!!!
    And your hubby is soo cute!

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  23. Love seeing the little gummy bear move! What a great US!!!

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  24. Great news about the u/s! I can understand how you are feeling. I haven't been in your shoes but it makes sense for you to be feeling cautious. I'm hoping that with each passing day you get more comfortable and are able to be as excited as your hubby.

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  25. Awesome news, Alex! I'm so happy for you guys! :-D

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  26. That's great news, Alex! I'm so happy for you :)
    But I understand that it must be hard... I'd be scared as well. Do you have a "deadline" for coming out at work? Because if not I'd just give it some more time, hoping that you'll feel better about this when you can feel the little one move or so... Take care!

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  27. I am so glad your hubs got to go with you. What great news!

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  28. So glad to hear all is going well. I know how hard it is to make purchases. I have filled my cart and closed the browser..often! :)

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  29. Isn't it amazing to see the tiny baby waving?!! Melts your heart!

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  30. I am betting boy!!

    So happy to hear that your ultrasound went well and that you saw your little one moving around. Isn't it incredible? Takes your breath away.

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