Monday, December 6, 2010

Triggered!

Thank you to all of you for your wonderful comments. I feel much better than I did on Friday, I think because we are finally progressing!

We went in for the final monitoring appointment Saturday morning, and I had 3 follies between 20-22 mm, 3 follies between 18-20, 7 between 15-18, and lots lower than 15. My estradiol was at 6,857! Up from 3,049 24 hours before. Yes, it’s definitely a good thing I’m doing the Lupron trigger instead of HCG. I triggered last night at 9:15, and did another Lupron shot this morning at 9:15 – had the pleasure of shooting up in the work bathroom… But considering my estradiol was 6,857 on Saturday, and it more than doubled in 24 hours, I can only imagine what it was last night at the time of trigger. Based on my research, it would have been an almost guarantee that I would have had OHSS after an HCG trigger. I guess the concern is now that I will get pregnant, and the HCG from that will cause OHSS… Oh well – I’m not going to worry about that today. I was hoping we would have the retrieval today, but I think they wanted to give the 7 between 15-18 a chance to get a little bigger, so that’s why they pushed it back to Tuesday. I don’t really know, I’m just trusting that they know what they’re doing, and I won’t worry about it.

I’ve been an emotional wreck. And the hubs does not handle it well. We’ve been in minor fights at least a couple times a day for the last week it seems, and we had a huge blowout on Saturday night. This resulted in me sobbing by myself in the living room, and the hubs in the bedroom, after he told me he didn’t want to talk to me anymore. I’m completely irrational, I know, but he’s not very helpful either. I am definitely not handling these hormones very well. We made up Sunday morning, and yesterday wasn’t bad – partially because I told him to go watch football with a friend of his. I’m almost better on my own, and it was good to avoid fights. Then he picked me up after an afternoon of sports, and we had a nice dinner out last night. So that was nice. For those of you that have done this before, when does the emotional craziness get better? I keep thinking that I just need to get through this phase, but then I remember that I start taking progesterone and estrogen supplements on Wednesday, that I have the rollercoaster of the embryo wait, the transfer and then the 2WW coming up. And then – assuming I get pregnant – the fear of losing the baby! I must not think of all that, as it just causes me to spiral in my negative thinking. But I really hope the feeling of not being able to control my emotions gets better…

23 comments:

  1. wishing you the best of luck Alex. I will be sending lots of good vibes your way (I need the same when we are set to go, likely on Thursday, but who knows).
    As far as the craziness goes, I think it ends when your baby is placed in your arms all warm and healthy. although I imagine a whole other set of crazy starts. In all seriousness, I do terribly between the retrieval and transfer. week 1 of the 2ww is good but week 2 is a disaster as the beta is looming. hang in there, this is a wild ride a little crazy is to be expected.
    love to you....

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  2. OMG!!! I am thrilled to hear your news! ((Sigh)) Yes, I guess now we wait for Tuesday to see the results of your love and dedication to being a mommy!!! Congrats, Alex! YOu're almost there.

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  3. So excited for you! Now rest up and drink loads of water and something with an electrolyte supplement. For me, the hardest part came after, the waiting! But hang in there, you can do this! You have everything going for you, it will work!!

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  4. That's great, Alex! I know you'll do great through the rest of this, too. I hope your husband comes around to accepting your (and his) feelings soon, too. I think it is worth it to try to bring him around, here, if you can. Otherwise, hey, at least it's football season.

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  5. I hate to wish that you get OHSS, but I hope so much that you get pregnant and your HCG levels are great!! Drink lots of water and you'll know to be prepared.

    Sending lots and lots of luck for ER!

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  6. SO excited for you! I hope that all goes well on Tuesday. Until then, rest up and drink lots of water. This is IT!!! :)

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  7. I don't know much about IVF, but I hope the emotions calm a bit for you. But really, it would be emotional even if you weren't pumped full of drugs. Good luck!

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  8. My dear friend, I'm so sorry I've not been more present for you (damn internet connection and bad weather!!) but do know that I'm keeping everything absolutely crossed. I remember what I was told about the choices of trigger I was very negative about using Lupron instead of HCG as stats weren't as good, but the most important thing is your health and OHSS can be really serious. I can't wait to read about your retrieval, sweetie, again you are in my thoughts and I'm here for you.

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  9. hey alex - you are going to get a shit ton of eggies with those numbers. i've heard that if the doctor knows what he's doing with lupron trigger, that it's extremely effective, so i can't wait to hear how this all pans out. everything is crossed for you!!! and don't fret over the fighting. things don't get more stressful than this, so both of your emotions are bound to be on edge and i know i was extremely sensitive during each of my cycles. hang in there and i hope you're not too uncomfy :o) xoxoxoxo.

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  10. Sending you so much good luck for tomorrow!!

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  11. Very excited for you Alex! It sounds like you have so many follies brewing in there, I can't wait to hear how many eggs they get.

    Hang in there with the emotional part of this, I have a good feeling about it all.

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  12. I am so excited for you! I bet everything you are experiencing emotionally is normal for all the drugs you are pumping into your body. I can't wait to hear how this week turns out for you!

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  13. If you get OHSS and you are pregnant will it affect the pregnancy? If not, I wouldn't worry about the ovaries :) I am really glad that you triggered and are on your way! As far as the emotional roller coaster, I think it's to be expected since you're adding fun hormones to your body, and it should ease as those hormones ease out of your system.. because pregnancy shouldn't have THAT many as opposed to getting triggers, etc. but that's my reallly bad opinion...

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  14. Wow, those are high numbers -- so many follicles at good sizes!

    I found that the crazy emotional stuff subsided after transfer. The progesterone still keeps things amped up a little, but it's nothing compared to the stims (particularly Lupron, which made me crazy). During stims, I had tons of little fights with my husband. I'd be snappish and cranky allllllll the time. Just remind each other that you're on hormones and it's not something you can control.

    Good luck!!

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  15. I know OHSS would suck, but I think it would be worth it if it meant you were pregnant! And there's definitely no guarantee you'll get it anyway. Drink up on that water and gatorade!

    And I'm sorry about the fights with your husband. Wouldn't it be great if we could get super-humanly understanding and sympathetic husbands when we're really emotional? But of course, they're just as human as we are, and so we all get cranky on the hormones!

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  16. I can't offer any knowledge about hormones, but I'm cheering you on all the way. You made it to trigger and that is so exciting! Take one obstacle at a time and know that I'm thinking of you and wishing you the best retrieval!

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  17. Good luck tomorrow! Can't wait to hear how it goes!

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  18. So happy this rollercoaster is finally moving again:) Things will start moving fast now and then the 2ww things will slow again:(

    I hate to tell you and the hubs this but things with the horomones will only get worse if you become pregnant...My hubs didnt handle my mood swings very well either...He is so used to me being the level headed take on the world kind of girl....and once I was pregnant I was pretty irrational and instead of being sympathetic for my cause and realizing I couldnt help it he and I would get in these small fights like you and your hubs....I guess when the women you marry takes a 360 turn they dont know what to do:( I was also rather moody, picky, and could be down right mean in the beginning which is so not me:( But when your Dr. puts you on a million drugs...and your body is producing all the hormones....and then add the worry of a miscarriage who the heck wouldnt be a complete wreck...If you can find her I want to meet her:)

    Well take care and be safe with the OHSS...and I cant wait to hear from you soon:)

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  19. Oh Alex, with all those hormones I imagine we'd also fight about silly stuff... hang in there. I hope you get lots of eggs, no OHSS but a wonderful baby in 9 months. Thinking of you.

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  20. Yeah!!!!!!!!!! The hormones will only get crazier which is also Yeah!!!!!!!! Can't wait, can't wait. Hang in there lovely lady!

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