1WW

One week from today, I have my beta. I feel like I’m cheating a little – it will only be 13 dpiui, but the nurse said that will be fine. I guess I have to remember that when they tell me the number… Assuming there is a number… It’s funny – I still assume there will be a number. I’m still pretty positive this will work, even if the success rates don’t necessarily support that, and even though I have no evidence to support this conclusion. But it’s been nice to stay positive. My big anxiety is around having to wait, and being nervous about it being positive, but in the awful way it was last time… I’ve scheduled my beta for next Thursday instead of Friday, as on Thursday afternoon we board a plane for Denver to see friends and family.

We moved away from Denver – we both grew up in Colorado – almost three years ago, and we both miss the people there a lot, so we try to go back often. This time we found plane tickets for only $150 each, so it was a very easy decision to go. We’ll be spending time with the Hubs’ family, and seeing our friends as well. We have plans Thursday night (meeting a bunch of friends at a bar – we tell everyone to meet us for happy hour, and it’s amazing how many people show up), Friday during the day (FIL’s birthday), and Saturday night (friend’s 40th birthday party). So this will all be good to distract me after the beta if it’s negative. Or if it’s positive… And if it’s positive, I’ll have to bite my tongue and not tell anyone – well maybe… And if it’s negative, I will have plenty of opportunities to drink my sorrows away – totally healthy, I know.

One of the things I like best about the Hubs is how social he is, and as we used to work at the same company, we have a lot of combined friends. We have maintained our friendships with most of the people because of the Hubs’ efforts, which is nice. Our social life in Denver was quite active, and we haven’t really made the same effort in Houston – where we live now. We moved here for the Hubs job, and we always thought we would live here for 2-3 years, and then move back. It’s been almost three years… The Hubs is considering quitting his job, but I found a job that I really enjoy and I predict will work with me when I have kids. If it was completely up to me, I would prefer to stay here. We’ve made a good life for ourselves – we have a nice house, and great jobs (at least I do…) and some good friends.

But when I’m sitting here trying to figure out what to do this weekend if the Hubs won’t help me distract me, I don’t know who to call. I don’t really have any friends that I could call and ask to do something with me, or at least any that I’ve done something like that with before. All of our friends here are people that we hang out with together, after work or something. But none that I would feel comfortable asking to help in the Distract Alex project. I have one good friend at work that I’ve done stuff with outside of work, but she has a baby, and the very last thing I want to do is spend all day with a baby. I know, awful. But it’s how I’m feeling right now, and that’s ok – right? It just makes me think about staying here in Houston, and whether it will be good to stay here much longer. As the Hubs is trying to decide what to do with his job, we’re trying to decide if he should look for something here or back in Denver, and the thought of not having anyone to call to hang out with on a Saturday makes me want to go back to Denver…

Thanks to everyone for your great ideas about what to do with distracting myself this weekend! I had pretty much decided to do something by myself, like go to museums that I’ve never seen, when the Hubs put a wrench in my plans. I had suggested a bunch of stuff – things that he likes to do – and he had shot them all down. But last night, he said we should spend Saturday at a big nursery that’s pretty far away, but is supposed to be nice, looking for plants to replace some dead ones in our yard. And then on Sunday, we’ll work on the yard. And Sunday night, he made plans with another couple for us to see the Iron Man movie – not my favorite type of movie, but I sure love Robert Downey Jr.! So he finally stepped up! I’m looking forward to this weekend – finally!!!

Thanks to all of you for being here in this wait with me – I couldn’t do it without you!!!