I’m not bleeding. The numbers are still rising. There is a sac. I’m trying to come up with the positive points. Because my hcg isn’t good. It’s at 3,235 today. For the first time, the nurse is not positive. She sounded very guarded. She said it should still be rising at least 60% each 48 hours, even over 1,200, and considering that 4 days ago, it was at 1,525, and it was 96 hours until my next test, she said I should be at a minimum 3,900. And I’m at 3,235. Now I’m supposed to “wait and see.” I have another blood test and ultrasound on Thursday. She said it might turn around, that things may work out, but she didn’t seem positive at all. She sounded like she was trying to be nice, but definitely didn’t want me to get my hopes up.
Oh God – I just got an email from the Hubs in response to my email explaining what the nurse said. His response was “Can’t they do something?” This just breaks my heart – there’s nothing they can do. Now I’m losing it at work… Must pull my shit together to make that walk out the door.