Off the Chart!

Just got the results of my beta today, and I’m officially off the chart:

I’m 17 dpo, and my beta is 859. For single pregnancies, the average at 17 dpo is 132, the high is 429. For twins, the average is 154, the high is 542… Oh, the possibilities!!! I’m trying to remain calm, as I know there is a huge range of levels that are possible. And then of course, I got nervous – what if it’s a molar pregnancy? I just spoke with someone that knew someone that had a molar pregnancy, and high levels of hcg could indicate a molar pregnancy… I really want to see the heartbeat – perhaps next week? I will probably have an ultrasound next Tuesday or Wednesday – if I wait until Wednesday, the Hubs can come with me, which is probably what I need to do. That may be too early to see a heartbeat, but it will be good to see a sac(s).

My weekend in Denver went well. It was very nice to see everyone. It was very busy, and I was extremely busy playing designated driver. It’s amazing how annoying people can get when they drink, and you’re the only sober one in the room… The funniest thing is how people don’t notice that you have had 4 double tall “gin & tonics” or something (club soda with a lime – my new favorite drink – that and cranberry juice & club soda) and you seem fine. But it was fun – good to see everyone.

Remember how the Hubs was adamant that we don’t tell anyone that I’m pregnant? Yeah, he can’t keep a secret. We weren’t there for an hour and he told one of his friends! And then, later that night, he told the biggest blabber mouth of all – his brother! The next night, his brother stopped by our table where we were with two of our friends, and he told me, in front of everyone, “take care of those babies!” Since the Hubs told the BIL, I convinced Hubs that he had to tell his parents – I didn’t want them to find out from the BIL. So it’s out – at least a little – in Denver. Which makes me nervous… My therapist tells me that it’s ok to tell people about our infertility stuff, and the steps along the way, as it gives us support, and the only people that know are people that we’re very close to, but it’s still very scary!