I can’t be trusted

My beta is Thursday, and the Hubs told me to wait until then to find out – don’t test early. I didn’t promise not to test, I told him that I wanted to test before then, but we didn’t actually agree on anything. My plan was to test on Wednesday morning, or at least Thursday morning before the beta. Then I found out that he was going to be gone for work. He left yesterday night, and isn’t coming back until Wednesday night. Left alone, a girl cannot be responsible for her actions… right?

I wasn’t going to test. I woke up at 4:00 this morning having to pee, and stayed in bed debating with myself for about 20 minutes whether I would test. I decided no, after convincing myself I wasn’t pregnant. Then I went back to bed. At 6:30, when I woke up again, I decided to test. First I used a FRER. I looked, and there was the faintest ever second line… But it was ever so slight, I thought it probably wasn’t positive. So I walked away. Then I started thinking… I realized I hadn’t dumped out my cup o’ pee, so I grabbed the only other HPT in the house. A CBE digital. It said the most beautiful word in the world: Pregnant!!!!

I’m dying – so incredibly excited, and the Hubs is not here!!! We rarely talk on the phone when he’s at one of these trainings – only text. And I really don’t want to tell him on the phone or via text. So now I have to wait until Wednesday night to tell him??? I told the dogs all about it this morning, but they didn’t respond the way I was hoping. So now I have three whole days to get through, without telling anyone, because I can’t really tell anyone else without telling my Hubs first! (Of course, I’m telling my bloggy friends, but for some reason that doesn’t seem as bad…) But I need to come up with a cool way to tell him when he gets home. Any thoughts?

Also, I think I should be positive about this. Last time (only time) I was pregnant, when it turned out to be ectopic, the HPT never showed up as positive until the day after the positive beta – 15 days past IUI. This time, the HPT’s are positive 10 days past IUI. That has to mean my HCG levels are higher this time – right? I know I should calm myself, and hedge my excitement as I don’t know beta numbers, and I don’t know it’s in my uterus, but I’m so incredibly happy. I really think this is it!!!