Monday, March 7, 2011

The Power of Comments

You helped me, you really did. I made it through the baby shower – unscathed – and I owe most of it to my readers’ words. You made me believe in myself that I could get through it, and I did. And the other thing that helped so much is there were a couple moments that were tough during the shower, and I would just grab my phone, and scroll through a few of your comments that you sent me. Knowing all of my infertiles were behind me, cheering me on, helped me get through a tough day. So thank you!!!

The shower went fine – it was pretty quick, not too many people, and I didn’t tear up once. I noticed that I didn’t talk much. I didn’t really have much to add to the conversations all about babies and pregnancy. I was one of two women there without children. And I overheard her tell someone that she just stopped taking birth control, and they were starting to try. Oh great, another one that I’m sure will get knocked up right away. There were four little girls there, ranging from almost-two to six, and they were all so cute and well-behaved. Which actually kind of sucks – I always can rely on one or two kids being so incredibly bratty that they make me question whether I want children or not. But no, all of the girls were on their best behavior and in their little party outfits. Ugh. And my friend opened present after present of cute little boy outfits, matching or coordinating, oh so adorable. As I wrote every present down, I could feel my uterus ache. I want twin boys! Why can’t it be me? OK, I’m done whining…

The good news about the baby shower is I made it through, my friend got a lot of stuff that she needs, and I think everybody had a nice time. And it’s done!

Four more days – I find out on Friday. I’ve been feeling so nauseous the last few days. Everything smells gross, everything tastes gross. I think I’m either a psychosomatic crazy person or pregnant. I think either option is equally possible. And guess who brought up POAS last night – the hubs! I was complaining about being hungry, but not wanting to eat anything, and he offered to go to the store. I asked “what are you going to get that I will want to eat?” He said, “a pregnancy test.” We debated – I told him I would pee on it if he wanted me to. Laziness won out – he didn’t go to the store. Now he’s the one that wants me to pee on something! Well, maybe… I still have my goal of not peeing on anything prior to the blood test. I would love to see a positive result, but I want my four days of positive possibility. You can’t get that back if you pee on a stick, and it’s negative…

31 comments:

  1. Alex,
    I am so glad that the shower was ok and the comments helped you get through. It makes sense that you would not talk much, I do that too. What do I really have to offer regarding what gym class to take your 2 year old to?? You are amazingly strong for doing this and even though I am sure your friend appreciates the shower, she probably has no idea just how amazing you really are. Good thing we do and can tell you all the time :)
    I will be thinking of you and couting down the days until friday!!!!

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  2. Congratulations on surviving the shower intact - you go girl!! Sending tons of continued thoughts your way for great news in the coming days.

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  3. So glad everything went ok with the shower. It's not an easy thing to do.
    Sending you hope and love!

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  4. Way to go on surviving the shower! You were much stronger than I was this weekend (post coming soon).

    Your symptoms sound so promising, but we all know better than to put too much stock in them. I truly hope this is it for you! Too funny that hubby was pushing the test! :)

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  5. Soooo glad it went well and OMG you are strong!!! Keep the hope :)

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  6. I'm so happy to hear that the shower went off without a hitch and it sounds like you did so well!! Only a few more days now - you can do it!!

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  7. So glad everything went well with the shower. You made it! Hope these are good signs for you. Ugh, the sticks can really bring you down if they are negative and even if they are faint... hold out as long as possible is my opionion. But it is hard to sometimes.

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  8. I'm so glad you made it through the shower. I'm so incredibly proud of you!

    Hoping the next four days go by very, very quickly!

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  9. You are a remarkable friend. I'm glad you made it through.

    Here's hoping we have much to celebrate in 4 days!!!

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  10. Yay, nausea!!!! Oh, I hope I hope!

    I'm glad you made it through-- phew.

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  11. Well done, I agree on the previous comments - you really is a great friend for doing this! That's something to be proud of!

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  12. I am so proud of you! No tears and no POAS!
    I can't wait to hear the results on Friday!!!!

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  13. That is so awesome. I knew you'd breeze straight through the shower. I thought of you yesterday, for real, and wondered how it went. I am so freaking proud of you. :D

    I'm hoping for more good news from you on Friday.
    Mwah

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  14. Sorry I wasn't online over the weekend to support you but I'm so glad the shower went well! You're being so strong about POAS, I could never do that (and suffered so many disappointments because of that...). I hope with everything that this is your super sticky success!!

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  15. I want to THANK YOU Alex for being my biggest supporter! You have been helpful for me during my struggles. What a trooper you are - going to a shower and then fighting the urge to POAS...Much braver than myself! I really hope this is it for you...Can't wait to hear the news on Friday!!!! Tell yourself, THIS IS IT

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  16. Yay for the blogging community! So glad we helped you get through it.

    I think you will be getting good news on Friday! Can't wait to hear about it.

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  17. So glad it went ok!!! Keeping all I've got crossed for the next four days!!

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  18. So glad you got through the shower...proud of you!

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  19. Well done Alex you are so amazing! You so deserve to have twin boys too, but you are right about the four days of possibility. Nothing worse than knowing early when it's only going to dump you in a hole. So you keep being the brave strong person that you are....and I'll keep looking forward to Friday! xxoo

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  20. I'm glad you made it through the party ok. I'm really excited for Friday!!

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  21. Hurray! Congrats on making it through!

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  22. You continue to amaze me. I am so glad you made it through the shower okay.

    My fingers are crossed so tight right now..and I will be back at the end of the week for good news. <3

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  23. I am so proud of you for braving that shower. I want very much to have your current symptoms leading up to a positive. I can't help but get excited for you, dear. That your hubs offered to head to the store speaks volumes about your hope!

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  24. Congrats on making it through the shower without showering everyone with tears. You are made of tough stuff!

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  25. Good job on making it through the shower! I hope that you are pregnant and maybe even with twins <3

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  26. Alex, I'm chiming in belatedly. But I'm really glad that the shower went well. You're a strong woman and I'm glad you got through it okay (not the easiest thing).

    Thinking good thoughts for you. If you test, it's not a sign of weakness. If you don't, that's good too (and I do know what you mean about the possibility). I'm so hopeful for you.

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  27. I'm totally thinking good thoughts for you! Take care!

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  28. three more days!!

    So glad you made it through the shower, you're truly a good friend!

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  29. Good for you for making it through! I really hope you'll be able to remember that shower and think about how you were pregnant and didn't know it through the whole thing!

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  30. That is so awesome that you were able to make it through the shower- I can only imagine how difficult that was.

    Just checking in... ;)

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