Wednesday, June 23, 2010

What the Fuck is Going On????

I don't get it. I don't understand. Why is this happening to such wonderful deserving women? Today, another announcement of an ultrasound with no heartbeat - Jo. She's the sweetest, most tender-hearted loving and beautiful woman out there, and she doesn't deserve this. Please stop by her blog and give her a hug - she needs it today.

There have been so many losses lately. Misfits, Adele, Rebecca, myself, and now Jo - just to name a few. This is just some of the recent ones - there's too many to name those who I follow that I've seen lose their babies. I don't fucking understand. Why are we destined to lose our babies? There's a whole world of fertiles out there that go through life blindly - planning when they get pregnant, assuming that when they get a BFP, it means they will actually have a baby. It's not fair. I know life isn't supposed to be fair, but this is too much. I just don't understand, and I'm angry.

21 comments:

  1. I felt the same way after my 4th loss in May.

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  2. There has been so much bad news lately. It's a little hard to stomach.

    xo

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  3. ugh, all of these losses (i can add a few names to your list) are really upsetting and bullshit. every time i hear of a bfp now, i cringe bc i'm in fear of these girls getting past the 1st trimester.

    i don't know why this $hit happens to good people. i hope none of you have to experience this ever again. sending big hugs. *hugs*.

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  4. Yes, it sucks. I'm so sorry. Thinking of you.

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  5. Seriously. This is so fucking unfair.

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  6. OMG. How horrible. This is getting ridiculous.

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  7. I have noticed the same thing. So many losses this month, it's awful and so unfair. :( My heart goes out to everyone.

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  8. It is so unfair. Why do the most wonderful people have to deal with such heartache? Everyone who has dealt with recent losses is in my thoughts.

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  9. What is going on? How unfair. It is so upsetting.
    Thinking of you....

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  10. It IS unfair... And I wish I had an answer.

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  11. I felt the same way this morning when I read the news. My heart is torn for the two of you.

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  12. I must second this entire post, WHAT THE FUCK, UNIVERSE..stop shitting on my friends.

    I'm so heartbroken for you and all of the people you mentioned.

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  13. I went through a loss this month too and we have overlapping friends lists, and I have to say I agree 100%. It feels like the universe is taking a big crap on our community. (Sorry.) I hope better times are ahead for all of us. I am so sorry you had a loss as well...This is unreal.

    Jess

    www.jesstutt.blogspot.com

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  14. I know, it does seem like there is a lot of loss right now. My bigger fear is that I will get pregnant and will finally see those two lines, but then I will lose my baby :( Too many worries for all of us!

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  15. OH my poor Alex I am so sorry am just catching up now. I can't believe it. I am just devastated that you lost your sweet baby after everything you've been through. You are so sweet to comment on my blog when you are going through all of this. I will be thinking of you and hopefully checking back more often. Wish I could be there to give you a hug, but here's one anyway (((HUGS)))

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  16. Alex, I'm new to your blog. A girlfriend in St. Louis sent me to you and I'm so glad! I just recently had the awful "no heartbeat" appt. and had a d & c on June 3. It's been 3 weeks today but isn't particularly easy as you know. So, here are a few extra hugs from me and I look forward to hearing more about your journey and the other great women you've mentioned as well!

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  17. I know there seems to be a black cloud over IF blog world at the moment and it really saddens me too. Its unbelievable that all those perfectly perfect woman are put in such perfectly disgusting circumstances. I hate it too. Makes absolutely no sense whatsover.

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  18. I was so upset to read of yet another loss. You couldn't have said it better, it's just not fair and it's so cruel... you are in my thoughts sweetie

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  19. I ask myself these thing ALL THE TIME. I wish I knew why this was my cross to bear. I really can't make sense of it and wonder if other parts of my life will be easier because this has been so freaking hard. It is so tough because my whole life I was taught that hard work would make you successful, but that is obviously not the case with infertility. You can work really really hard and still end up with nothing.

    Thinking of you and hoping you are feeling better.

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  20. So heartbreaking :( Thanks for linking to them.

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  21. Makes me angry, too (and thank you for this post and for your comments on my blog). There's no rhyme or reason to it. No logic that I can see. Sometimes it just makes you want to beat your head against a wall. We deserve better. All of us.

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