Heartbeat

We have one!!! A super strong, 136 bpm, wonderful heartbeat! It was so nice to see that little one flashing away. And everything is measuring well. Oh I’m so incredibly excited. This might actually be happening!!!

Also, my tube looks a little smaller than it did last Thursday, so they are thinking that the ectopic baby is either being absorbed by my body, or it was never an ectopic, and everything was a little swollen from the IUI, and it just looked weird. So I’m still supposed to take it easy, but I don’t have to come back for a week. I’m so incredibly thrilled – for once, everything looks good! I’m still having quite a bit of cramping, but the nurse said that was normal. Only if I have “makes you bend over, and doesn’t stop” kind of pain, should I go to the emergency room.

I’m planning on going to South Dakota and Colorado next weekend. South Dakota for a family wedding, and then we were going to Denver for one night, because we had tickets to see U2. BUT – Bono had emergency back surgery, so he cancelled the tour. Which sucks – we have had plane tickets for awhile, so we’re still going to Denver even if there’s no concert, but that’s ok. We’ll be able to see friends. I asked about travelling next weekend, and the nurse said that was fine, especially because we were going to see family, and they would know where emergency rooms were, just in case. She wanted to make sure we would be around people who could help, and that we were close to medical care. Which brings up the big problem at home.

We have tickets to go to Europe in September with another couple. We bought the tickets before the IUI, as they were a really good deal at that point. We bought travel insurance to get back the price of the tickets if we weren’t able to go. I think the Hubs always thought we would be going, no matter what. But I always thought in my head that if I got pregnant, I wouldn’t be going. Well now the Hubs is fighting me on this – he really wants to go. I told him he should go and leave me at home, as there are other people going on the trip as well. He said he wouldn’t, I think primarily because of what people will say when they find out that he left his pregnant wife at home while he went running around Europe. He says that I’ll be 5 months pregnant, everything should be fine. He says there is no reason I can’t go – I should plan on going unless something changes. He says that unless I can say specifically what travelling to Italy, and Switzerland and Germany will do to hurt the baby, that I should go. I know I probably could go, but it just sounds awful! I really like experiencing new foods, and I’ll be nervous about that. The nurse was making sure I knew where the emergency rooms were in South Dakota – what about in Italy where we don’t speak the language or know anyone there? We were talking about staying in each town only a night or two – so that involves a ton of travel. That sounds awful for a pregnant girl. I don’t know, maybe I’m just being overly nervous, but all I want to do is stay at home and take care of this baby!

Plus there is the whole concern of spending money on a vacation, when we could be spending it on baby stuff. And the more PTO I have accrued when I have this baby, the more paid time I’ll be able to take for maternity leave. And I just don’t want to go! I hope I’ll be able to get my doctor on my side, and he’ll say I shouldn’t travel, and I could tell that to the Hubs. But I’m afraid I’m going to have to fight this on my own. The worst would be if we don’t go, and I have to listen to the Hubs complain about not going, and how I made him stay. That is why I just want him to go by myself – don’t want to hear him complain. Terrible, right? I just think that we, and especially I, went through so much to have this baby. I don’t want to do anything to cause any additional risk. But I don’t know how to explain this to the Hubs, and I’ve tried…