First, thanks to everyone for their nice comments about my temper tantrum yesterday. Sometimes we all need to just whine for a little bit. Feeling much better today - it's amazing what a little makeup and activity will do for my spirit!
Just got off the phone with my blood work & monitoring results. My lining is almost at 9, and they said they like it over 8, so that's good. My left ovary is doing most of the work this month. It's pulled ahead, and I have three potential follies on my left: 17, 14 & 12 mm each. On my right, I now have one at 11 and 10 mm each. And my estradiol has risen to 529.
I'm supposed to keep my gonal-f at 75 each night, and keep doing the ganirelix (boo!!!), and go back in on Wednesday morning. They expect that I'll trigger that night, and do an IUI on Thursday, and another one on Friday!
I'm now in the stage where I don't feel very well - achy ovaries, bloating - and I'm nervous about getting this all done. I will need to tell my boss that I will be taking Thursday and Friday morning off. I hope he doesn't ask questions - he's not very good at boundaries. I ended up telling him about the miscarriage last time, just so I could take some time off and to explain the crying. But he doesn't know we're doing fertility treatments, and I really don't want to explain. I'm not really nervous about the procedure this time, as it went ok last time. But I just don't want to do it! Every day gets me closer to finding out if this will work, and although I'm still trying to maintain my positive attitude, and it works most of the time, it's just hard to stay upbeat. I have a few more days for these little ovaries to work, so I'm going to be chanting at them and my eggs for the next few days to keep growing!