I miss weekends that are fun, when time goes by quickly. I had no plans this weekend, the Hubs was at work all weekend, and all I did was mope around. It's gorgeous outside, and I didn't go outside all weekend until this afternoon when I finally forced myself to sit outside this afternoon and read blogs on my laptop, as at least it got me out of my own head for awhile. I took a shower today - better than yesterday, but I didn't do my hair or my makeup or anything all weekend. I've had weekends like that before, and generally I consider those good times, as I like having downtime. But now, the last thing I need is downtime. I'm glad to go back to work tomorrow. Just to see people, and interact, and be forced to pretend that everything's fine. And do my hair and makeup - I think that will help!!!
I'm actually doing ok, just not really doing anything. I sit in front of the TV all day and cross stitch. I usually like doing it, but now I find it frustrating. You know what else is awful? Sitting outside and hearing all the sounds of suburbia, which is primarily kids playing and laughing. I'm alone in the backyard, with no children other than my pups... Why does anyone move to suburbia before kids???
On another note, I hate ganirelix. I hate the size of the needle - much bigger than the gonal-f. I hate the stinging for an hour after I did the shot. And I hate the welt and red mark I get on my increasingly fat stomach after the shot. I've only done one - last night - and I have a few more to look forward to - starting tonight.
Thanks for letting me vent... Now I will go inside, clean up a little, and do my nails or something - anything to pass the time before I can go to bed and start this craptastic week - the one that will include more shots, more monitoring appointments, and a couple IUI's. I hate those too...
If you can't have a temper tantrum on your own personal anonymous blog, where can you have it?