I’m reached the point in the cycle where the hormone shots make me an absolute wreck. I’m still very positive, thinking it’s going to go well. And my mood is generally pretty darn good. But I can cry at the drop of a hat.
I’ve cried both yesterday and today watching the Today show. I really need to stop watching news – it’s sad! And the worst was last night when I was watching Parenthood. I don’t know why I started watching this show – it’s truly terrible for those of us who would give anything to be a parent. But it’s a really good show, and now I’m invested, so I’ll keep watching, I’m sure. There’s this guy on there that slept with someone 5 years ago, and didn’t know he now has a 5 year old son. The mom recently contacted him, and he’s now trying to be a good dad, even though he’s been living the crazy single life all his life. In last night’s episode (not really sure when it aired, I had it recorded), he got mad at the mom for robbing him of 5 years of his son’s life, and they had it out. But at the end, the mom played the video of their son’s birth for him, and it showed the dad tearing up watching it. I’m tearing up again thinking about it. But I didn’t just tear up last night – I sobbed. We’re talking about 10 minutes of bawling, sobbing, runny nose, the whole bit! Thank goodness the Hubs was at work – he really would have thought I lost it! I guess I really just needed to let it out and cry, but I hate feeling this way. I’m walking around today, feeling great, but I have that pressure behind my eyes, just waiting to spill over…
Last night’s acupuncture went really well. I feel bad, I think the guy is angry at me for doing an IUI and not waiting to see if he can get me pregnant without treatments. He asked me last night if an IUI was expensive. I said yes, and then he asked if acupuncture was expensive. I said yes…but after a bit I agreed that it was less than an IUI. He then said I was smart for figuring that out… Oh, and I fell in love with him a little after he accidently tickled my back while putting needles in. I flinched, and he said he was sorry – “you just have very tight skin, like a teenager…” I KNOW that’s not true, but I love him for it anyway!
I’ll update later when I get the blood work results, but the monitoring this morning went well – we are progressing nicely!