My hubs and I have done one major trip each year for the past few years. Last year we went to the Bahamas for our wedding, and then had a surprise trip a few months later when Hubs’ work needed him in Oman, so I went with him and we went to Dubai, Oman, and then Paris on the way back. The year before that we went to Sweden to visit the land of Hubs’ ancestors and some extended family. The year before that we went on a whirlwind road trip of Germany, Poland, Hungary, Czech Republic, Slovakia, and Austria. Before that, Hubs would do a trip each year with some guy friends, but I’m happy to report that for the last few years he’s gone with me – as it should be! It’s always been our goal to do one big trip every year, but this year, we haven’t really talked about it. We usually start planning a year in advance, but we’ve been trying to get pregnant for the last year. And each month this process continues, it looks like getting pregnant is going to cost more and more, so in my mind, I figured our vacation was probably out the window this year.
And then comes along some friends of ours. They’re going to Europe in September, and brought this up to the Hubs, asking if we want to join them! Of course, he’s in – he wants to go, he starts planning, thinking of what we’ll do, and finally asks me what I think. I look at him, and just say – “what if???” What if I’m pregnant? What if I’m not? What if it’s in the 3rd trimester (now no longer possible…)? What if it’s in the 1st trimester? I finally tell him that I will go if I’m in the 2nd trimester, and if I’m not pregnant, but I don’t know if I really want to go! I told him that we need to make plans that are cancellable – like we’re booking the trip on miles, so that’s easily refundable except for about $100 cash – no big deal. And we’ll have to book all the hotels with real rates – no internet deals – so they are cancellable. Which he’s fine with, I think.
We’re talking about what to do, and where to go – if we go – and Hubs just sent me this email: “I really want you to tell me what you want to do because it will be the last time we do a trip like this if ever.” Oh that’s sad! OK, no pressure, right?
I don’t know what to do – I want to just say to hell with it, and plan the trip, and get excited about it and assume that I won’t be pregnant by then. But what if I’m pregnant??? Oh I can’t live my life like this anymore – this is ridiculous!