I thought about this blog for a long time before I actually took the plunge and did it. And when I did, it was to have a diary, and write out my feelings, and finally respond to all of the amazing women whom I have followed, and admired. I loved knowing that there are other women going through the same things I did. But it never occurred to me that I would actually feel so supported by my new bloggy friends – the comments really do help, don’t they? I was so sad yesterday, and I put my feelings out there on the world wide web, and felt better for writing them down, but then – people commented, and I realized that these people are real live people that have gone through the same things I have, and this is what I was looking for – a true support system, so thank you!
I had a long talk with my acupuncturist last night. I told him we were thinking of doing another IUI and fertility drugs; he asked why, as in, why wouldn’t I want to get pregnant naturally? I explained that I’m not getting any younger, and it’s the only thing that has actually made me pregnant in the year that we’ve been trying. He said I can do whatever I want, and he will both support and help me if I do fertility treatments or not, so that’s good. But I explained that we’re going to do one cycle naturally before the IUI, and I think he views it as a challenge. He made me promise to take his herbs, which I haven’t really been doing, and to start exercising more. He said exercising was mandatory to getting pregnant. So I’m going to give myself to him this month, and do whatever he tells me to do, only because I would truly LOVE to get pregnant naturally (who wouldn’t???) and I can’t get into the RE until too late into next cycle. But first – my period needs to start, which I think will happen soon as my temp dropped today. But my crazy little acupuncturist Dr. Kim has given me hope again.